Category Archives: Personal

Interregnum

If I started a passage, if I began the written word, with no goal in mind beyond the will to write, would something come from it? I write while I live, and even if all narratives are melting into a single entity designed to reign over us, I still will write as a human, asContinue reading “Interregnum”

Entangled Shadows

And in the corner of their vision, there were shadows that lingered a bit too long, shadows which reluctantly receded when direct gaze was fixed upon them, always allowing for rational modernity to keep close the binding fear of cataclysmic evil. But post-modern inclinations always allowed for the distant possibility that these shadows were real,Continue reading “Entangled Shadows”

Stillness and Sickness

Drunkenness is solitary because it calls forth a battle waged in the soul, a battle which many wish not to even glimpse much less fight. Because when I am walking my dog, and I see the clouds dimpled across the sky and lit forth with the dazzled sun, I see something which forces my solitaryContinue reading “Stillness and Sickness”

This is 40

How many times now have you recited the same dialogue with your family, a vestigial reference to an organic moment of joy with them from ages past. Now though, this dialogue keeps the demons at bay, keeps it all from spilling forth because you don’t even know what will spill forth, but whatever it is,Continue reading “This is 40”

Split atoms

God’s benevolence is receding from the world as darkness envelopes it. Taboos are cloaking devices; things which slither and whisper and pry further open the abyss are hidden behind shimmering beams of passivity. There is no passivity in the wild evening sunlit air though: more astonishment, incomprehensible things which strike me dead in their fullness,Continue reading “Split atoms”

Blessed are you

You are a human, an imago dei; do you not know the glory in store for you? Don’t stop in nature and in life with trivial temporal mother earth. Pause and think for a moment, though, how majestic is that plateau. And then begin the perception of the Creator of the heavens and earth whoContinue reading “Blessed are you”

My God, Light

All of them, infinite leaves in shimmering green, move and lift and settle with the eastern September wind. And the light, my God the light of the setting sun against shimmering, wavy branched leaves. It sets me beyond language beyond time beyond doubt beyond pain beyond worry and shame, into a bliss of unending fortune.Continue reading “My God, Light”

All things end in two endings

And coming around again in orbit, I see those of my own creation below and behind in the past of my present discontent. And I shake them off, spiraling ever upwards as men sleepwalk themselves ever downwards in apathetic resignation. You have no interest in growing and changing, only preserving what you already have. IContinue reading “All things end in two endings”

Love two steps forward, one back.

The waves crashed from below, in the upside down world at the end of time. I was purchased out of it and a strong arm pulled me to the surface that was the floor. And the feelings of envy, anger, bitterness, and the shame addled memories cycling around the drain, felt ever more alien everContinue reading “Love two steps forward, one back.”